dear God :)
I want to know what I need to know
dear God :)
give happiness to everything
and give awareness to everything
dear God :)
let me be in You
so that everything I do
will always fits You
dear God :)
thank You for the keyboard
to write this
dear God :)
it's kinda weird to talk with You with letter
like in letter
dear God :)
I think It's a LOT to ask You
but You are the only one
who could understand me
and grant my wishes
dear God :)
if its not too much,
I want something more
dear God :)
thank You for giving happiness
so that sadness wont last
dear God :)
I surrender me
to You
dear God :)
thank You
I love You
and I'd love to meet You
dear God :)
I dont know that else to talk about
maybe now it's Your turn :)
// wednesday, may 19, 2010, 10:03 PM, weather: scattered clouds 28°C, a slice of conversation between Ganesha Adiguna and God
19 May, 2010
15 May, 2010
15 May 2010, still wandering around
After I graduate 1 year ago from the so called respectable university at my town. I've been wandering around, washed away by the stream, denying lot of things. And yet, still at the same state as before, wandering.
Who am I?
What am I?
What do I live for?
Why?
I'm sad, and alone.
I'm happy, and alone.
I know, and alone.
I feel so alone in this world.
I feel so empty.
I look at a lot of my classmate, being doing what lot of people say success. There's one who work at A company, while other at B company. There's one who have married. There's one who do school again to gain title. Sometimes I feel jealous, most of the time I feel sad. Sad by being alone.
I denied business and enterprise company, because I see lot of things that wont fit in my heart. Something like constrain of 8 hours work, deadline, chief and member, etc. The whole system is just sad. Lot of people doing that thing just because they feel insecure. Isn't that sad, doing things because of insecurity.
I denied professionalism, because what I see from professional is that they work for money, anything for money. Sad, so so sad.
Being alone is not better though. I don't like being alone. Right now, I let myself being washed away by the stream for once. Let's see what'll happen.
Who am I?
What am I?
What do I live for?
Why?
I'm sad, and alone.
I'm happy, and alone.
I know, and alone.
I feel so alone in this world.
I feel so empty.
I look at a lot of my classmate, being doing what lot of people say success. There's one who work at A company, while other at B company. There's one who have married. There's one who do school again to gain title. Sometimes I feel jealous, most of the time I feel sad. Sad by being alone.
I denied business and enterprise company, because I see lot of things that wont fit in my heart. Something like constrain of 8 hours work, deadline, chief and member, etc. The whole system is just sad. Lot of people doing that thing just because they feel insecure. Isn't that sad, doing things because of insecurity.
I denied professionalism, because what I see from professional is that they work for money, anything for money. Sad, so so sad.
Being alone is not better though. I don't like being alone. Right now, I let myself being washed away by the stream for once. Let's see what'll happen.
07 May, 2010
Do you really need desire?
Do you want to be great people?
So you wish other people to be bad
Do you want to help people? or to be rich?
So you wish there are poor people
As long as there is desire, then there will always a despair or desperate in this world
Do you really need desire?
So you wish other people to be bad
Do you want to help people? or to be rich?
So you wish there are poor people
As long as there is desire, then there will always a despair or desperate in this world
Do you really need desire?
02 May, 2010
Smoking is Stupid
As the title I write, smoking is stupid. No matter how I look at it. No matter who sip it, smoking's still stupid. Why do lot of people smoke? Kind of mass stupidity in society.
Why do smoke? What do smoking give? To look cool? Cigarette contain "tar". Tar, also known as total particulate matter, is inhaled when the smoker draws on a lighted cigarette. In its condensate form, tar is the sticky brown substance (filled with chemicals) which can stain smokers’ fingers and teeth yellow-brown. All cigarettes produce tar but the brands differ in amounts. So, do yellow-brown teeth with black lips and red eyes caused by constant smoke is cool?
To calm yourself? I don't think so. Cigarette contain nicotine, and Nicotine is contained in the moisture of the tobacco leaf: when the cigarette is lit, it evaporates, attaching itself to minute droplets in the tobacco smoke inhaled by the smoker. It is absorbed by the body very quickly, reaching the brain within 7-15 seconds.
It stimulates the central nervous system, increasing the heart beat rate and blood pressure, leading to the heart needing more oxygen. Carbon Monoxide, the main poisonous gas in car exhausts, is present in all cigarette smoke. It binds to haemoglobin much more readily than oxygen, thus causing the blood to carry less oxygen.
So, when smoking, the heart beat increase. Is it calming?
Because everyone do it? So if society think peeing on others lawn is ok, then it's ok?
Why do people thinks it's ok while it's not ok? To much question in my head. It's a stupidity for generation, for millenium. Why don't people think? And why don't people act? Why does the government allow stupidity? Well, government now somehow is stupidity.
Lot of people make an excuse of smoking. "Because i couldn't stop", " I do this for my country, because cigarettes is one of the top tax revenue", "Because my friend do it", lot of nonsense. Where is humanity? If i'm a human, then what are the smokers? If smokers are the so called normal human, then what am I?
note: some of the article are taken from this site
To calm yourself? I don't think so. Cigarette contain nicotine, and Nicotine is contained in the moisture of the tobacco leaf: when the cigarette is lit, it evaporates, attaching itself to minute droplets in the tobacco smoke inhaled by the smoker. It is absorbed by the body very quickly, reaching the brain within 7-15 seconds.
It stimulates the central nervous system, increasing the heart beat rate and blood pressure, leading to the heart needing more oxygen. Carbon Monoxide, the main poisonous gas in car exhausts, is present in all cigarette smoke. It binds to haemoglobin much more readily than oxygen, thus causing the blood to carry less oxygen.
So, when smoking, the heart beat increase. Is it calming?
Because everyone do it? So if society think peeing on others lawn is ok, then it's ok?
Why do people thinks it's ok while it's not ok? To much question in my head. It's a stupidity for generation, for millenium. Why don't people think? And why don't people act? Why does the government allow stupidity? Well, government now somehow is stupidity.
Lot of people make an excuse of smoking. "Because i couldn't stop", " I do this for my country, because cigarettes is one of the top tax revenue", "Because my friend do it", lot of nonsense. Where is humanity? If i'm a human, then what are the smokers? If smokers are the so called normal human, then what am I?
note: some of the article are taken from this site
