2nd attempt to make 7 arts for 7 days: tuesday & wednesday

Internet connection going bad yesterday. I use cheap dial-up connection so I'm not expecting much from it. Today my $5 a month dial-up internet goes preety stable so I can update my works and make up for yesterday. Here's my tuesday:

And it was ugly as always. I use my canon s3is to capture, and i use GIMP to adjust the brightness, and I use my laziness to not cleaning the file first :D. I want to draw my girlfriend, but it ended up not as I hope. Here's my Wednesday art:

This is Canti from FLCL series which I admire the design so much. This would be better be categorize as fanart. I use GIMP as always. At the first hour of painting I still have energy to refine the detail. As the time goes by, my stamina didn't catch up with my desire, this is when I start draw the wing, the feather, the cloud, and etc that looks ugly. I just realize that painting require patience and stamina which I am lack of.

It took me about 4 hour to finish this one. God, it's a pain in my back. Originally I paint it in 3megapixel size. When it finish, I scale down to 1megapixel to upload it here. After I scale it down, not knowing that I haven't save it to jpg, I do editing again, and accidentally overwrite my master file. I try to undo it, but it's to late. My 3megapixel painting gone forever..

2nd attempt to make 7 arts for 7 days

Recently i've been busy playing assassin's creed 2 on my pc and am very absorbed to that game. It has a great gameplay, great graphic, great character, great story so I have zero reason not to play this game. It's superb!

By the way, my skill is a bit rusty, so I decide to make 7 arts for 7 days again. I post it here so that I have motivation to do this. And, here's the beginning art:

I like cute and relaxing 3d wallpaper, so I decide to try make one. I use blender to make this. It was a lame attempt with ugly rendering. Still, process is as important as final product. And that is a cute penguin, try to eat radioactive ball. In truth, they already eat some.

Like this! Like no other!

This one, just happen. Without any planning, just flowing like the air. I don't even know why I draw something like this, but I like it. It's a deformed illustration of me and my girlfriend. Here:

The original title is Gag & Ta, a creepy couple. But because i first upload it to facebook, and there is a "like this" trend, so i put a second title, which is Like this! Like no other!

I've been with my girlfriend for about 5 years, and I'm pretty happy with her. Sometimes she made me sad, sometimes she made me happy :). But most of the time, she's nagging me for lot of things. That's why I think she's gonna be a great mother :D

Trying to improve drawing skills

I've been drawing many doodles lately. I feel like I'm entering another world when I'm drawing. It feel so good to draw. Here's one my sketch:

The result is somehow weird. Look at the crooked smile. Looks creepy to me. Oh well..

What is God?

In this text, I will tell about what is God in my perspective, through what I feel. By God, I mean the one and only, the greater good, the everything that contain everything. And By God, I mean nothing like greek God (zeus and their friend), or norse God, or similar.

What is God?

God cannot be described in words because words is part God, and so does everything, including nothing. God consists of time, world, you, me, love, sad, angel, evil, burger, plant, happines, and so on.

We cannot separate us from God. Speaking logically, through theology study, human believe that God create us. Being created by God, with God's energy, it means that we are part of God's too.

While if I speak for atheis, human born from another human, from a single egg and one surviving sperm, which came from another human that born from another human whose born from another human. Every single process, object, activities, attribute of that is part of God. Like when I say human consists of organ that consists of million of cells that consists of gazillion of atom that consists of gazillion of proton and electron and so on. And Earth consist of human. And Galaxy consists of planet.

Yin and Yang illustration perfectly fit for conception of God :)

Then War is part of God? And so does sadness, anger, greed?

Yes. But think of it, feel inside your heart. is that what you want? Human born in this world for a reason (or a mission). Sadness, anger, greed, is just a basic instinct of human physical body to survive and protect this body, so you could do your mission in this world of human. Every single human have it imprint in their body. What makes them (sadness, anger, greed, etc) look bad are the way human use it. When human became to attach to this tools, and made this tools his mission, then the effect will be like domino.

For example:
Human needs food.
Human search food.
Human collect food to survive longer.

Problem will happen when:
Human don't want to share the food to other human.
Human collect food more than human could chew.

The chain will be:
Other human need survival too, but the stock in the area are depleted.
Human take other human food with force.
Other human whose more inferior, join force with other inferior human to have more power to take back the food.

Thats when war happen.
If you rethink of it, do human will die if they dont collect food with too much greed?

So God is bad?

Yes. And God is also Good. God have love and happiness. There is your family in God. There is fresh air in God. There is beutiful flower in God. There is your lover in God. There is life in God.

What should I do?

If you hurt yourself, it means you hurt the others. If you hurt the others, it means you hurt yourself. If you hurt your environment, it means you hurt yourself.

Stay for a while and listen to your heart. You are part of God afterall. And so do I, and so do everything, including nothing.