15 May 2010, still wandering around

After I graduate 1 year ago from the so called respectable university at my town. I've been wandering around, washed away by the stream, denying lot of things. And yet, still at the same state as before, wandering.

Who am I?
What am I?
What do I live for?
Why?

I'm sad, and alone.
I'm happy, and alone.
I know, and alone.

I feel so alone in this world.
I feel so empty.

I look at a lot of my classmate, being doing what lot of people say success. There's one who work at A company, while other at B company. There's one who have married. There's one who do school again to gain title. Sometimes I feel jealous, most of the time I feel sad. Sad by being alone.

I denied business and enterprise company, because I see lot of things that wont fit in my heart. Something like constrain of 8 hours work, deadline, chief and member, etc. The whole system is just sad. Lot of people doing that thing just because they feel insecure. Isn't that sad, doing things because of insecurity.

I denied professionalism, because what I see from professional is that they work for money, anything for money. Sad, so so sad.

Being alone is not better though. I don't like being alone. Right now, I let myself being washed away by the stream for once. Let's see what'll happen.