What is God?

In this text, I will tell about what is God in my perspective, through what I feel. By God, I mean the one and only, the greater good, the everything that contain everything. And By God, I mean nothing like greek God (zeus and their friend), or norse God, or similar.

What is God?

God cannot be described in words because words is part God, and so does everything, including nothing. God consists of time, world, you, me, love, sad, angel, evil, burger, plant, happines, and so on.

We cannot separate us from God. Speaking logically, through theology study, human believe that God create us. Being created by God, with God's energy, it means that we are part of God's too.

While if I speak for atheis, human born from another human, from a single egg and one surviving sperm, which came from another human that born from another human whose born from another human. Every single process, object, activities, attribute of that is part of God. Like when I say human consists of organ that consists of million of cells that consists of gazillion of atom that consists of gazillion of proton and electron and so on. And Earth consist of human. And Galaxy consists of planet.

Yin and Yang illustration perfectly fit for conception of God :)

Then War is part of God? And so does sadness, anger, greed?

Yes. But think of it, feel inside your heart. is that what you want? Human born in this world for a reason (or a mission). Sadness, anger, greed, is just a basic instinct of human physical body to survive and protect this body, so you could do your mission in this world of human. Every single human have it imprint in their body. What makes them (sadness, anger, greed, etc) look bad are the way human use it. When human became to attach to this tools, and made this tools his mission, then the effect will be like domino.

For example:
Human needs food.
Human search food.
Human collect food to survive longer.

Problem will happen when:
Human don't want to share the food to other human.
Human collect food more than human could chew.

The chain will be:
Other human need survival too, but the stock in the area are depleted.
Human take other human food with force.
Other human whose more inferior, join force with other inferior human to have more power to take back the food.

Thats when war happen.
If you rethink of it, do human will die if they dont collect food with too much greed?

So God is bad?

Yes. And God is also Good. God have love and happiness. There is your family in God. There is fresh air in God. There is beutiful flower in God. There is your lover in God. There is life in God.

What should I do?

If you hurt yourself, it means you hurt the others. If you hurt the others, it means you hurt yourself. If you hurt your environment, it means you hurt yourself.

Stay for a while and listen to your heart. You are part of God afterall. And so do I, and so do everything, including nothing.

Reading tao te ching

Reading is not as simple as interpreting per word to object. It's more of arranging word in the world of imagination. Like self hypnotizing to enter another dimension of the world. Like seeing the world with others eyes.

Words are magically seal our image, sound, feeling, thinking, time, through simple combination of symbol.

I wonder whose the first creator of word.

Lately I've been doing some reading. Tao Te Ching is the book I've been reading lately. The Tao Te Ching was written in China roughly 2,500 years ago at about the same time when Buddha expounded the Dharma in India and Pythagoras taught in Greece. The Tao Te Ching is probably the most influential Chinese book of all times. Its 81 chapters have been translated into English more times than any other Chinese document. Tao literally means "the way".

I haven't finished it yet, and i found something from reading. Not because it teach me a "How to", but because one sentence consists lot of meaning. Many book nowadays are mostly straight forward, easy to understand book. I don't think it's wrong to be straight forward, but it made me realize that there's a lot of different approach to do one thing.

Qur'an, Bible, Bhagavad Gita, and other sacred script are books that use the concept of "one words with thousand meaning". It made me sad that a lot of people or group interpret the script literally. There is more than words in that text. There is world sealed by the bar of code in there. I would dare to say that it has different purpose for different people.

Back to Tao Te Ching, there's some sentence that made me relaxed and smile.

Part of chapter 2:
"Under heaven all can see beauty as
beauty only because there is ugliness.
All can know good as good only
because there is evil."

Chaper 7:
"Heaven and Earth last forever.
Why do heaven and Earth last forever?
They are unborn,
So ever living.
The sage stays behind, thus he is ahead.
He is detached, thus at one with all.
Through selfless action, he attains fulfillment."

Save the text for later, night is coming. Good night :)

one life, one's life

what is life? why is life? that's one of the biggest unanswered question in my life. Why there is life, where does life come from. When does the beginning of life? Everything in this world is living, right? Life consist of either physic material, and/or undiscovered material (something like soul, light, aura, time, wave, etc).

God is never a question in my life. God is always my answer :). But my brain kept hunger for partial answer. Something like, why bicycle move like that, and brain want the answer per part, like: the pedal being pushed, then the chain move the gears, and the gears rotate the wheel. Everytime I ask where does life came from, where does it start, I kept telling myself that beginning and end is a law that God apply to God's creation. But now it's not satisfying anymore.

I know that everything is a circle. Circle of life. Everything goes in a cyclic motion. Earth rotate the sun, electron rotating the proton and neutron, human life keep rotating, life death, and live again. Reincarnation is a cycle.

I don't even know why do I life, so right now, I have no strong desire or will to live. What do I live for? Do you know what do you live for?

My friend, crot, once tell me this: "basically, human only wants happiness". It's true. But there will be no happiness without sad and sorrow.

Formal education for 16 years or more is never teach me life. They only teach me survival. It's more like 16 years training for survival. And money has became survival kit. But they never tell me why do we need to survive?

My physical body may move with desire as a fuel, but my soul is empty, hunger for something I dont even know. What is my soul apetite?